What's love?

I haven't been on in a while, but as always life continues. Being in a relationship with a man that has kids and a past creates problems with trust, loyalty and feelings. I'm deeply in love with my boyfriend, but with 6 kids of his own and "still in love baby mommas" friction is easy. I want a life with him, but with me being so much younger its hard to find stability with him. A recent arguement sprung the fact that he wasn't sure if he wants me to meet his children, something I been wanting to do for a year now. But everyone is very specific about what they want their children being exposed to. I love him so I guess I have to love everything that comes with him right?

Poetry. I Think Love.

I think love.

Is it possible to be in love with someone and just remain friends

Friendship is what started our beginning and love became our end

Obstacles interfered even before we spoke our first words

Hard to understand how something so beautiful can cause so much hurt

We were separated by 12 years of life

12 years of love deceit and strife

Weary about our beginning we both went head first

Days turned into months and our situation got worse

Lies and insecurities had a hold on our relationship

Our family and friends had no clue of our secret

Words would fly names would be called

What would they say, what could this cause

The feelings I felt with him I felt with no other

I wanted so much more than just being his lover

Months turned into years

Fears turned to tears

Attention I craved couldn't be given

The love I dished couldn't be forgiven

Time and life pushing us farther

Had to remember that he was a father

For him the life of his own is more precious than my own

Me putting me first will mean I’ll never be alone

Learning to love me will leave room to love another

Still hope one day we could still be together

When I think of him I think love

My Sign

Aries

Positive

Adventurous and energetic

Pioneering and courageous

Enthusiastic and confident

Dynamic and quick-witted 

Negative

Selfish and quick-tempered

Impulsive and impatient

Foolhardy and daredevil 

Being with one of us will be a trill! We are very tough and fight for what we want, but at the same time very mellow and loving. My boyfriend puts up with me and all my bull, him being a Lion Leo.

What signs do you guys have to deal with?

Control

I've been disputing for a while whether blogging would for me. I'm the type that has alot on the brain but rarely gets the time or oppurtunity to let everything out. Im obsessed with horoscopes (me being an Aries) love, sex, poetry and my boyfriend. Most of my blog entrees will probably relate to one or more of those aspects. 

I just got off the phone with my boyfriend of 2 years this July. We came back today from a lil vacation for 2 nights, it was beautiful and I had so much fun with him I didn't want to come back to reality..... work.. work.. and this awfully small town we live in. We've maintained a very quiet relationship for the amount of time we have been together, only our close friends knew... now the whole town knows, well they think they know. Me being 23 and him now 35, our relationship stricks curiosity in others. And because of them we decided to keep things hushed. But now that things are getting a little out of hand I'm ready to tell the world IM IN LOVE!! and let everyone deal with it, but the only thing thats stopping me is.... him. The title of this is control, the more control I have over myself, my situation and my patience I wouldn't feel so anxious.. but that's easier said then done..

 

Any one else in a similar situation?